Don't feel like wanna sleep nowBut I'm bored
I had nothing to do
Not even wanna touched my books
What can I do?
Friend, what are you doing now?
Online-ing? Or missing someone?
I felt so empty
I'm lame
So I simply write something on my facebook
See got some body give me respond or not
But this is not important
Do you know that what I'm thinking about?
My brain was always working
24 hours non-stop thinking
Feel like wanna do something mad
But all those thing I wanna do may use a lot of money to make it
So I'm awake
I wanna swimming at night, Now!
Haha don't be stupid Angel
You know? I feel like I'm complicated
Actually I don't even know what I want also
Feel pity to myself
What kind of people am I?
I can be good, and bad to you also
I don't need a lot of friend
But I will feel lonely sometime
I'm emo nation
But at the same time I can smile to you
Just like nothing happen
So because of this, I feel I'm fake!
People would never know what I'm really thinking about
Haizz...
Is it just only me faced this kind of situation?
Life are challenging
Am I matured enough to handle all the problems?
Iwas always thinking to be smart
I wanna change my self
But seems like nothing change on me
Friend, am I still the same?
Am I still the same person that you know me when we first meet?
Tell me please
No matter change a lot or still the same
Let me know please
You may think that I'm lebih
But I care about your mind
Especially my best friends and family
Sometime, I know I speak some words that may hurt your heart
Actually I know it, I just can't controlled my self and speak out straight forward
Sorry... Sorry mum... Sorry my best friend
Is hard to say sorry to some one for me
Even my dad
He is out of my life
I don't have the chance to say sorry to you, dad
Sorry for my words, that makes you hurt
Sorry... And I love you... I love you dad... I miss you...
Sorry... DAD...
I'm not a good daughter, I know
Promised you I will take care of my self and mum
Don't worry about us ok
...................
And you, My ex boyfriend
The one who hurt me the most
You gave me a sweet dream
And you took it back so suddenly
When the time that I love you deeply
Nevermind
I know I'm stupid.. Naive.. Not enough mature
You make me awake and accept the fact
Thank you so much!
And now, you have your lovely new girlfriend
Look at your face, your smile..
Makes me wanna punch you and disgusting
I wont wish you happy and blissful
One day you will know my feeling
How hurt am I
And feel sorry to me!
I'm fine
Cried let me feel much better right now
Is time to let me refresh my mind
Dance and study
I decide don't put too much of stress on my self
Do my best enough
Ok, stop crying, back to that ' ANGEL ' that everyone know
Continue smiling with you
My dear friends and mum