Don't feel like wanna sleep now

But I'm bored

I had nothing to do

Not even wanna touched my books

What can I do?

Friend, what are you doing now?

Online-ing? Or missing someone?

I felt so empty

I'm lame

So I simply write something on my facebook

See got some body give me respond or not

But this is not important

Do you know that what I'm thinking about?

My brain was always working

24 hours non-stop thinking

Feel like wanna do something mad

But all those thing I wanna do may use a lot of money to make it

So I'm awake

I wanna swimming at night, Now!

Haha don't be stupid Angel

You know? I feel like I'm complicated

Actually I don't even know what I want also

Feel pity to myself

What kind of people am I?

I can be good, and bad to you also

I don't need a lot of friend

But I will feel lonely sometime

I'm emo nation

But at the same time I can smile to you

Just like nothing happen

So because of this, I feel I'm fake!

People would never know what I'm really thinking about

Haizz...

Is it just only me faced this kind of situation?

Life are challenging

Am I matured enough to handle all the problems?

Iwas always thinking to be smart

I wanna change my self

But seems like nothing change on me

Friend, am I still the same?

Am I still the same person that you know me when we first meet?

Tell me please

No matter change a lot or still the same

Let me know please

You may think that I'm lebih

But I care about your mind

Especially my best friends and family

Sometime, I know I speak some words that may hurt your heart

Actually I know it, I just can't controlled my self and speak out straight forward

Sorry... Sorry mum... Sorry my best friend

Is hard to say sorry to some one for me

Even my dad

He is out of my life

I don't have the chance to say sorry to you, dad

Sorry for my words, that makes you hurt

Sorry... And I love you... I love you dad... I miss you...

Sorry... DAD...

I'm not a good daughter, I know

Promised you I will take care of my self and mum

Don't worry about us ok

...................

And you, My ex boyfriend

The one who hurt me the most

You gave me a sweet dream

And you took it back so suddenly

When the time that I love you deeply

Nevermind

I know I'm stupid.. Naive.. Not enough mature

You make me awake and accept the fact

Thank you so much!

And now, you have your lovely new girlfriend

Look at your face, your smile..

Makes me wanna punch you and disgusting

I wont wish you happy and blissful

One day you will know my feeling

How hurt am I

And feel sorry to me!

I'm fine

Cried let me feel much better right now

Is time to let me refresh my mind

Dance and study

I decide don't put too much of stress on my self

Do my best enough

Ok, stop crying, back to that ' ANGEL ' that everyone know

Continue smiling with you

My dear friends and mum